All In Good Time

Two weeks ago the pain started. Pain in my left hip area, pain in my right foot. Three doctors later I was told I had bursitis in my hip and an out of control blister on my foot. They ask you on a scale of 1-10 what the pain level is and I always answer "12". There have been nights, and days when I have done nothing but cry and scream and call out to God. I'm sure that if He loves me like he says he does, he wont leave me this way for long. My house is a disaster. Being in so much pain allows me to just drop whatever it is and leave it on the floor. My hardwood floors are white with dust. I can only wash a couple of dishes at a time because standing hurts. I have lost a lot of weight. Hurts to eat. Hurts to drive, but I do it. Though I have had good church family available to take me to the doctor this past week. I have a test on my circulation coming up next week. I have a huge house insurance bill due very soon, Christmas is coming and this goose is not getting fat. So to speak. I had to back out of my Thanksgiving plans so that I could spend time with my sister at 'the home'. I managed to do some Christmas decorating in her room, but the pain was horrible. Today, after coming home from a needed trip to Walmart with my other sister, I noticed I didn't have any pain. I noticed I was able to do a little straightening up around the house, without the cane. I noticed I was sitting more comfortably.

One thing I have never lost sight of is the faithfulness of Jesus. I have thanked Him in advance for healing. I have told him more than once that I don't know why I'm suffering like I am. And that's ok. I mean look at what He did for me. Talk about suffering. And I, like Him, will have the victory! All in good time.

Pain Pain Go Away

Early Sunday morning I woke up with horrible pain in my left thigh area. I had slept on the couch that night, woke a couple of times and was ok but around five that morning something was wrong. I have been in pain since. Using a cane, heating pad, pain pills, nothing really helps. I broke down this morning and made an appointment with a chiropractor. I have never been to one in my life. I have no money, no insurance. Not sure how I'm going to pay for it. I hope the doctor finds what is wrong and can get it fixed. After all of last months illness and now this, I'm ready to scream. Maybe I should, it might make me feel better. :-)

Have you ever just screamed over something and felt better for it?

I had an errand to run in another close by town and I grabbed a couple of cassettes to take with me, yes I said cassettes. Someday I will be blessed with a vehicle that plays cd's but until then...... Anyhoo, I popped the cassette in not knowing what or who it was and the second I heard the voice I got a lump in my throat and a tear in my eye. I can't help it, I'm sentimental. It isn't the first time I've listened to this type of music this year, I do however consider it to be "official". Ahhhhh, tis the season! I know you are dieing to know who it was......it was, Perry Como Christmas Album. My heart has a soft spot for Perry, Dean Martin, Andy Williams. It just isn't Christmas without them. Who are your favorites?